Okay, so I may not be a great writer, but I sure am an honest one! This honesty reveals some of my deepest held heartaches, pain, hurts and confusions. This one…I’m not sure what it says about me. Here goes!

“Are drawers the window to the soul?” she (me) laughed to herself (me) as she (me) attempted to retrieve a back scratcher from her (my) bed side stand.

This was pretty much the first thing I did when I woke up today. Even before talking to God! I’m such a heathen!!

What a wonderful way to start the day. Let’s see what other truths will be revealed to me today.

So then, after praying, I opened my eyes a little wider. And I realized, the top of the table looked the same. My phone, my new mini CD player with headphones, my water bottle, a couple of small yet profound books, of course my glasses to read them with. Oh, and yes, the lamp!

Neither the accumulated items inside the drawer nor on top of the stand says much to applaud my organization skills. They are great in other areas, but not in drawers!

As I considered the rest of the cupboards, closets, dressers, kitchen drawers, rooms, attic, basement, etc., I realize that I have way too much stuff, and none of it is well-organized. “So Jane,” you might ask, “why not get organized?” Good question. Let me consider an answer.

Somehow, I go straight to the heart. I don’t consider myself a lazy person, so it must be deeper than that. I hate mess but obviously not enough to do anything about it.

I truly wonder if it’s symptomatic of my years of stuffing my feelings way down into my heart. That was a habit that was very hard to break. So now that I know that, what am I going to do with it.

Time to clean the garbage out of my drawers, cupboards, closets, dressers, kitchen drawers, rooms, attic, basement, etc.! No more excuses. And as I do, I can further cleanse myself of any lingering garbage in my heart and soul.